golfhobo |
05-06-2013 04:33 AM |
Not much to update right now, Tex! And I'm having problems with the "return" function. Denise and I are doing fine. Still a few "bumps" but nothing we can't... or haven't... overcome. I am amazed at how much we are alike. That is both good AND bad... but, it is who we are! Seriously... I can pizz her off without making her mad! Does that make sense? Point is... she can TELL me when anything I say upsets her... and I think she "expects" me to understand and not take offense. Likewise... SHE seems to be able to tell me how she feels, and "I" don't get upset! She is the daughter I always wanted! [break] But, mostly... we talk about her kids or her softball games. Or her boyfriend. Isn't that what a father would expect from a grown daughter? [break] I'm sure I've bored her to death with all of my explanations, mea culpas and regrets. But... she hangs in there or just changes the subject. [break] The MAIN thing is... she is only interested in moving forward with our relationship. And, I can't argue with that. I have two wonderful grandkids... and SHE has made sure that THEY, and I, are aware of that relationship. What a blessing! She already "trusts" me with them... and only requires that I be "good" to them. How hard is that? Yes... I KNOW that she is and will be watching. That will be my "test." I only hope that she will see that I am capable of loving them... and by inference... that I could have been a good father to her! [break] I think I can pass this "test." If I don't... then I don't deserve ANY of them. But... I will NOT fail. [break] They will ALL be here in about a month! We're spending a week at the beach together. My parents won't be there, so... I guess "I" will be the Senior person. lol. First chance to be alone with them for a few days. Kinda like "Charles in charge." lol. [break] ALMOST like having a family! I don't see it as "make or break." Not THAT much pressure. But... it WILL be interesting. Guess the next REAL update will be when it's over. Keep you posted... and again I thank everyone for their support!
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