[liness11]

I'm 25 years old and I've been on my own since I was 16. A year ago, a man convinced me to be his partner for life and things were going great. I never thought I needed anyone for anything until I met him. Without him, I could have a great life. Since I've met him, I can't imagine my life without him. Until he went to truck driving school. I got used to having him around all the time and quite frankly, I was a little irritated with it. I was working two full time jobs while he wasn't working. I finally got the courage to quit one of my jobs of almost 10 years when he started school. I kept telling myself, "it's just another week or two and he will be home." One day reality set in and I realized this is my life if I stay with him. I love him with all my heart but I'm tired of crying myself to sleep every night. He hasn't even started the job and I want him to quit. The real kicker is that my stepdad who raised me was a trucker and we rarely saw him. He was a smoker and had 3 heart attacks in the truck and is now disabled. My boyfriend started smoking a few weeks before he started school. He wants to have a baby and I want that more than anything. I just don't want my baby to grow up without a father. Whether he is living or not.

[Menehune]

Being a truckers wife is not easy. Although both of you should have discussed this change before he left for school. I think that the next time he comes home maybe you both should talk about it, and you can tell hiom your feelings, etc. Although, he has to be a man, and you have to be supportive of him. As unlatering as that is, both of you need to support each other. Although if he really wants to be a trucker, maybe you should ride with him. Maybe even get a CDL and drive team with him. Another possible is he spend some time getting his experience, then go to a local job here he could be home every night. What ever happens, I wish you all good luck.

[repete]

"He wants to have a baby and I want that more than anything. " From every thing you wrote that line really jumped out at me !
Haveing a child is a LIFE altering event, with him in school and a long term driveing job MAY happen a child will only complaicate things. Being away from home can be just as hard on the one(s) left beahind as the one thats gone, haveing to deal with household bills/chores a job and a newborn would be a huge challange. Sure people do it, and people fail at it too. Use your head and your time to think, no one else can decide for you.

I just noticed something else you said "a man convinced me to be his partner for life " for life really? So your married? If he's not willing to stand in front of god and family and commit ....