I'm not sure what to say. My husband was a school bus driver for 7 years before getting into trucking. The bus driving years were extremely lean for us. We had some serious financial difficulities trying to keep utilities on and food on the table. We never did buy a home, and any cars/vans we had were older used ones that were extremely cheap.
This is his second year driving truck. Yes he does go through his periods where he thinks I don't love him anymore. I just keep reminding him that I do every chance I get. I'll say I love you every time there was a stall in the conversation or at least twice in 5 minutes. He will say didn't you just say that? I said yep, and I'll say it again. I remind him how much the girls love him. I'll have them talk to him on the phone when they can. When he gets in that thinking mode, I try my best to stay away from anything that would take the conversation in a negative direction.
You are at the point where you are about to loose your car and home. I know that must really hurt. Are you a stay at home mom, or do you have a job? If you don't have a job, you should start thinking about getting one and soon for two reasons. The first is to try to help keep things afloat. The second is if he is going to jump ship, you will need one anyhow just to be able to support yourself.
The other question I have is does he take care of all the bills? If so, then you might suggest that you start handling them, since he is gone so much to take that stress off of him. Remember if he has been taking care of everything and does let you take over for a change, just make sure you give him the money he needs while he is on the road.
Also remember that he only needs to hold on a year at this company before possibly thinking about switching to another company. The first year pay is the worst, especially if he takes cash advances. He might actually have to. Later on he will be ablet to get into other companies that will pay better. I know that doesn't help you know, but if you can keep your marriage together, it should give you more hope.
If you have cell phones, keep in steady contact with him. Call him at least once a day just to see how he is doing. Even if he can't anser it, at least he will see the missed message from you. If you use the voice mail feature, leave a simple message just calling to say I love you and miss you.
My situation is a little different. My husband and I use to get on each other nerves, and we would fight. Where we live didn't help any either, because there was really no where to go to just be able to be by yourself for a little while. If he is here for a day or two, that is great. When it starts to get into the third day we start to get on each others nerves. The one time when he was about to leave, he said you want me gone don't you. I said out straight, yes I do. Our relationship is better because you are out on the road. We only seem to yell at each other when your here for two long time of a period of time. He would start to nit pick everything I didn't get done and over look everything that I did get done. Yet we can talk practically hours over the phone with no yelling at all. Go figure.
The other thing I wanted to say, is that it does sort of sounds like you made have had some arguements about money. Maybe so much so that he thinks you don't love him anymore. Where as you just may be too stressed out to show much more than your stress eventhough you do love him. The key here is to somehow let him know that no matter what happens that you love him and always will love him even if you do loose the house and car. He is more important, and the both of you will get through this together somehow. This is where a marriage counciler would come in handy.
If you believe in God, now is a very good time to pray and pray heavily for your marriage and finanaces.
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