Ok, I thought I was ready for this whole hubby being gone to be a trucker thing. I know to stay busy, I know to be supportive, I've heard most the advice. But here I am, at 2 in the morning, feeling like I want to bawl my eyes out. Why? I feel helpless and very alone. My hubby is out with a trainer currently, and is having a few issues. I'm very used to being able to help him through anything..and everything. This time..I don't even know enough to know what is and isn't supposed to be going on.
What makes it worse currently, is he calls me on his trainers cell phone, which is great don't get me wrong. But..I'm not allowed to call him except for emergencies. Well, I can't quite talk myself into me falling apart being an emergency, so here I sit. I know this will probably smooth out just fine, maybe even by the next time I talk to him, it just doesn't seem to be doing me much good right now.
Also..does anybody else have trouble making themselves go to bed? I get tired, and then I push past it and don't feel it so much anymore. And it ends up being 3 and 4 in the morning before I make it to bed. I know that can't be helping here, any suggestions.
Thanks for letting me vent..