It feels good, knowing there's a place I can come to and get validation! It's been sort of tough, and I've kept things bottled up inside. Now, I know that the "butterflies" I've been having are actually normal---and will continue throughout my career!
Since they're normal, I think I'll just sit back and enjoy them!
I have yet to see anything other than trainee pay, but I could see where a real check would drive the reality of my new job home.
It wasn't until you captured it in words that I realized what I'd been resisting==when I was asking
how, others were hearing "do it for me"! No, no! I want to know how to do it for myself! I know that my being a woman had a lot to do with that, but I don't drive my truck with my...um...nether parts!
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I'll keep reading, keep learning. This morning, as I turned wide in my personal vehicle, I realized that more has sunk in than I realized...and that I think I've already got a few drops of diesel in my blood! I caught myself looking for my trailer and had to laugh!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me. I'm already missing the big steering wheel, and I hope to soon get on with one of the two companies I'm applying with. Can barely wait to get back out there!
Jewels