Why is there a double standard when it comes to women with families going otr compared to men doing it?I love my husband but I think sometimes he's "mentally challenged" He told me this evening that I should just get another job here and forget about "this fantasy"as he calls it of mine.NOw keep in mind all his dreams and fantasies for the last 14 years,i've supported.Even if it meant us sleeping in cars or living in a hotel room.We've moved more times than not while he's pursued his ideal career.And everytime it's time for me to do my thing he finds a way to make sure I don't go all the way.I've been in school in a community college for going on 4 years.And everytime I had to quit it was because he needed me for this or that.While I love my family with all my heart,I really feel the need to do something for me.I truly feel like while this isn't a $100,000 a year job,it does offer stability,benefits,and opportunity to grow.I feel a lot more comfortable getting paid 30 a year than 15 or 20 and have 4 kids waiting on shoes and underwear twice a year.See I know it is long and hard for someone with a family but I also know that it is even harder crying at nite because you work and never have enough.So I am willing to sacrifice a year or so otr for a job that will help my family.
I am sooooo tired of people from my family and his telling me that I can't do this.I have kids and a husband.I should settle for a nice manufacturing job.At least i'll have 401k and life ins.They all act as if truck driving is for a single person that has no responsibilities.Why is it so hard for them to understand I need to be happy and this will do it.I relly don't understand how my hubby can say he will be there for me one minute and just 360 the next.He knows how bad I need to do this.Now he's telling my family
i'm crazy and I should grow up.How ironic.I'm trying to add steady income to our near zero checking account that he keeps taking from to go into a new business every other month,but to him i'm immature.If I wan't saved i'd show him what "crazy" is !!!!
Thanks for allowing me to vent to you all.I really have no other support right now other than my bible and God and am so thankful for this forum.It really is keeping me sane thru all of this.Talk to you all later